Good morning blogging world. Today is a bright a beautiful day here in sunny always California. I am sitting here enjoying my morning while I share my thoughts with you. As always I usually have something to share. The girl's night out went as planned. As usual there is always a beautiful little attack on us right as God is about to bring about a joyful occasion the enemy tries to steal the joy in anyway he can. Thankfully, I have been prayed up! If you know what I mean. The Lord had put it on my heart not to be easily irritated or thrown off by every little whim and wave that comes my way. That certainly was a struggle for me for a while there. If a giant wave came my way, I was down on my luck, feeling sad, irritated and unhappy. Well, I learn my lesson, Garret help me to learn the value of wearing the full armor of God by also learning to guard my heart, which means my emotions. That's a lot harder said than done, really it is. Our emotions can get in the game almost every day all the time. God gave us emotions, every day we have a thought or feeling about something. Having emotions is one way we draw closer to the Lord in the way we feel about Him. Where would we be without them?
Anyway to make a long story as short as possible, I decided that there will always be something to be irritable about. Instead of being thrown off by every wave that pushes me in the wrong way, I decided to start deciding to let things roll off my back. This decision came in handy the night before my Bachelorette party. Well, I made up my mind right there and then not to allow it to rock the boat and move with the waves.
When Garret and I went to bed that night we held hands and prayed for God to be with us on our life long journey together as we would be taking these new steps as a Newlywed couple. We knew the time had arrived and we were preparing for a beautiful Sunday, and it certainly was. My mom and brother made it to church with Garret and I. We had a lovely service with a man, gifted with a voice for whom the Lord speaks powerfully through. We had awesome God time and the worship was simply sweet. I really, really enjoyed. I was filled with the presents of the Lord in a beautiful way. It was very filling. Several of us were able to hear a powerful word from the Lord, prophetically.
Garret and I got called to the front of the church where the Lord spoke powerfully over our lives. We held hands and of course the tears fell, we were touched by the way the Lord confirmed our hearts and love for Him. We felt seen by God. Life can get pretty lonely from time to time. Knowing that God has our backs was very uplifting for the both of us. The Lord confirmed He had His hand over Garret and that His dream of being a successful man was already in God's hands. And one other thing, I had been having dreams of having seen my children from time to time, which I have had many countless discussions with the Lord about, well this having been confirmed once again that children will be coming soon! We were excited to hear the news. Healthy children! We were both prayed for. Something we really needed encouragement for.
Later after service my mother got prayed for and my brother as well. Their word from the Lord was very filling. My mom was given a word from the Lord through this man who has a gifting in the prophetic that, "she would be a mother to many," yup and she really is that alright. And to my brother he said, "he should not leave this world without at least a Dr. degree." It was all very encouraging. We got a filling of the Lord in a restoring way and rejuvenating. I call it God's Bachelorette party gifting to me. After all He can celebrate a wedding in His own way. Not sure when the kids are coming but when we know we are pregnant we will let you know! For now I am only a few days away from getting up North for my first Bridal Shower. One day at a time. Every day brings me closer to the wedding.
Together we went out to eat, Mother, William, Garret and I. We took my mom to a quiet little place on the bay to have a bowl of clam chowder and some other good eats. William and Garret watched the Hobbit at our little house, and Mother and I headed up North to enjoy the Bachelorette party with my Bridesmaids and my girl cousins. We had us some good eats! I had me some really good fettuccini with shrimp and some really sweet lemonade. Everyone else tried the chicken marsala it was a very good dinner. I regret to say I was in my Pilates pants and the same old blue hoodie that I usually enjoy wearing, my excuse, it was raining. I decided to go with warm and comfy. I know, I know, it's California how hard could it possibly rain? It's not like a freezing rain, true. But if I had grown up in inches of snow always at my front door I might consider a little California rain as warm weather compared to freezing white flurries. Accept, I'm used to sunny almost all the time and some ocean water, so rain of any amount is winter to me. So I exchanged my heels for my boots. It's just about time for some cowgirl boots if you ask me. Soon, maybe.
So after dinner, we headed to my cousins house and we began the games. We played a game called, "How much love is in the jar." We guessed how many candies were in the jar and who ever guessed the number closest to the correct count of kisses in the jar got a prize. We played a few games and then had cupcakes, "Better than sex" cupcakes! Oh so yummy! and more chocolate and Carmel in every bite with small crushed candy bites sprinkled on top. It was the best temptation in the world, how could I stop at just one? Accept, that it was such a rich cupcake, it's a challenge to eat two without having a cupcake baby. I ended up having a few more throughout the week. It was really good pick for cupcakes and I am a big fan of cake anything.
It was a fun night to remember. I'll never forget it. We ended our night just mother and I with my cousin and a Hallmark movie. We drove home in pouring rain.
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
Friday, February 20, 2015
Bachelorette party in one day!
Good morning bloggers everywhere in the blogging world. I am so excited to announce! The Bachelorette party is almost here! Sunday afternoon the girl's and I will be going out for some fun! We will be going out for a really nice dinner and then yes, I have requested cake for the big event of fun, oh my! I have almost forgot! What am I going to wear for my Bachelorette party? I had almost forgotten. Something for me to think about. I almost forgot I need to think about hair and make up, this is all coming up so fast. I have things to catch up on before the Bachelorette party! So much to do so little time! I really do like that catch phrase, because there really is so much to do and so little time to get it all done. Before I know it, I'll be taking a train up to see Garret's parents. I have butterflies in my tummy. I'll be traveling up North for the wedding and I am really excited about it. No Garret for a whole entire week! what! OH MAN! but I think I can do it. What am I complaining about anyway, I know there are some of you who have to be away from your man for years at a time, so what am I complaining about? I am excited to be having a wedding that will build a lasting memory in our hearts. It is almost here! yay! Here we goooooo it's almost like a rollercoaster ride, we are at that point when we are reaching the top of the ride and now we will be rolling all the way down.
I am so glad that you are viewing this page as I take you along with me on our own little journey to the wedding day. It won't be long until it's here! Before you know it we will be on our way to our next adventure, our honeymoon! Follow us along the way we would love to take you with us on our journey, our new beginnings, our never ending life's story. If you like this page and you want to know more about our journey and want to pray with us please follow my blog, I would love to get to know each of you better. I hope in some way to be able to inspire you to see that even though I am a blogger and on my way to the alter that life is not perfect and there will be trails and tribulations and that is just a part of life. You can't get around it or over it that's just it. Challenges are just apart of what is sewn into our lives. It's how we approach those life's issues that counts towards our happiness and well-being. Are we able to ride the wave or let the wave roll right on under as we fly over the water back onto calm waters.
How do we overcome the things that are most challenging in our lives? This I have learned, you hold onto God 100% there is nothing like holding onto Him. He is the best Dad in the world. I've held onto two promises, first, He will uphold you with His righteous right hand, second, He will never leave you or forsake you. That is a promise. I am not perfect by any means, never will I lead you to believe that or think that. A lot of people talk about how life is or how it should be or the way things are meant to be, some say this is how someone should have lived their life or that they did not live it correctly, I am here to say that no matter how you live your life, live it simply. Now this is what my Grandfather, Imel taught me, "The whole world will love you," He said, BUT you can't love the whole world." He always seem to have it just about right, and when I say just about right, I can't say he was always right because he had flawed personality as well as a genuine spirit. That is the truth.
If anyone knew him best in his old age it would be me. I spent every day with him until he past away. He also said that sometimes, you live the best way you know how and you do the best you can to try and do the right thing, but sometimes you can't do the right thing." Boy was he ever right. We all try our very best to do the right thing. Sometimes there will just be people in your life who get down on you because you got married the wrong way, it's too fancy, it's too country, it's not enough fancy, it's not enough pretty, it's all about the frills, the dress, the shoes, the make-up, the glamour, the dream and for others, they might never have had a wedding before, maybe you got pregnant before you got married, shame on you! You did it wrong! I love how people point the finger on what is right and what is wrong. Who is better to be the ultimate judge other than the Heavenly Father.
I have thought about perfect people and what their flawless lives might look like, and I have nothing to learn from them. In fact the truth is not in them if they suppose they have nothing better to do than to live up on their high horse and look down on everyone else who hasn't lived up to their standards. I don't consider that love or Grace at all. I would run far and fast away from these people. We all have secrets or our own, things we do not share with people of ourselves. I am sure those are all very well kept secrets but to me they are nothing, just as with Jesus His blood covers it all. As long as you are in Christ, you are a new creation. Some how people show up at weddings with their thoughts, opinions, words that are negative and not up-lifting at all. It is not for them to be the judge of all things, nor the commentators of people's life. We do not need them or anyone else to show up with their critical mindsets.
We all have something to share, a story I am sure of. Something we could all say about our inner selves that we could share is not so great. How can we be so quick to point the finger? What is the point. To tell someone else how they should be living better or how they did not live it better to begin with when now they are walking with the Lord. What are we score card keepers, as if God really needs our help, I think He has got this all under control. I am not anyone big to talk but I don't have to be an uprising person to tell you, I've got my own critics within my family. They love, love to watch my life with the purpose of having a reason to say something that is not affirming to my spirit. They have this wonderful habit of spitting in my face so to speak, never once have I had relationship with these people but it sure has been something to set boundaries against their critical spirits. This goes for many people who have this habit. Place secure healthy standards for yourself know first who you are in Christ and do all that you can to live for Him because in the end He is all that I am living for.
I am so glad that you are viewing this page as I take you along with me on our own little journey to the wedding day. It won't be long until it's here! Before you know it we will be on our way to our next adventure, our honeymoon! Follow us along the way we would love to take you with us on our journey, our new beginnings, our never ending life's story. If you like this page and you want to know more about our journey and want to pray with us please follow my blog, I would love to get to know each of you better. I hope in some way to be able to inspire you to see that even though I am a blogger and on my way to the alter that life is not perfect and there will be trails and tribulations and that is just a part of life. You can't get around it or over it that's just it. Challenges are just apart of what is sewn into our lives. It's how we approach those life's issues that counts towards our happiness and well-being. Are we able to ride the wave or let the wave roll right on under as we fly over the water back onto calm waters.
How do we overcome the things that are most challenging in our lives? This I have learned, you hold onto God 100% there is nothing like holding onto Him. He is the best Dad in the world. I've held onto two promises, first, He will uphold you with His righteous right hand, second, He will never leave you or forsake you. That is a promise. I am not perfect by any means, never will I lead you to believe that or think that. A lot of people talk about how life is or how it should be or the way things are meant to be, some say this is how someone should have lived their life or that they did not live it correctly, I am here to say that no matter how you live your life, live it simply. Now this is what my Grandfather, Imel taught me, "The whole world will love you," He said, BUT you can't love the whole world." He always seem to have it just about right, and when I say just about right, I can't say he was always right because he had flawed personality as well as a genuine spirit. That is the truth.
If anyone knew him best in his old age it would be me. I spent every day with him until he past away. He also said that sometimes, you live the best way you know how and you do the best you can to try and do the right thing, but sometimes you can't do the right thing." Boy was he ever right. We all try our very best to do the right thing. Sometimes there will just be people in your life who get down on you because you got married the wrong way, it's too fancy, it's too country, it's not enough fancy, it's not enough pretty, it's all about the frills, the dress, the shoes, the make-up, the glamour, the dream and for others, they might never have had a wedding before, maybe you got pregnant before you got married, shame on you! You did it wrong! I love how people point the finger on what is right and what is wrong. Who is better to be the ultimate judge other than the Heavenly Father.
I have thought about perfect people and what their flawless lives might look like, and I have nothing to learn from them. In fact the truth is not in them if they suppose they have nothing better to do than to live up on their high horse and look down on everyone else who hasn't lived up to their standards. I don't consider that love or Grace at all. I would run far and fast away from these people. We all have secrets or our own, things we do not share with people of ourselves. I am sure those are all very well kept secrets but to me they are nothing, just as with Jesus His blood covers it all. As long as you are in Christ, you are a new creation. Some how people show up at weddings with their thoughts, opinions, words that are negative and not up-lifting at all. It is not for them to be the judge of all things, nor the commentators of people's life. We do not need them or anyone else to show up with their critical mindsets.
We all have something to share, a story I am sure of. Something we could all say about our inner selves that we could share is not so great. How can we be so quick to point the finger? What is the point. To tell someone else how they should be living better or how they did not live it better to begin with when now they are walking with the Lord. What are we score card keepers, as if God really needs our help, I think He has got this all under control. I am not anyone big to talk but I don't have to be an uprising person to tell you, I've got my own critics within my family. They love, love to watch my life with the purpose of having a reason to say something that is not affirming to my spirit. They have this wonderful habit of spitting in my face so to speak, never once have I had relationship with these people but it sure has been something to set boundaries against their critical spirits. This goes for many people who have this habit. Place secure healthy standards for yourself know first who you are in Christ and do all that you can to live for Him because in the end He is all that I am living for.
Monday, February 16, 2015
The wedding count down continues.
I am so excited!!!! I had to blog today! I will be spending the day with one of my really good friends Angelica!! I'm super excited! The wedding is almost here! There is so much for me to do so little time! Yes I am getting super happy with all the explanation marks so bare with me. I have never been married before so you can imagine my butterflies over the wedding day. I will be enjoying my first ever, everything wedding fun! My Bridesmaid Angelica will be coming over to visit and then we will be going to see which veil and blusher I will pick. I can't believe that the wedding is this close! I can't wait to post wedding pictures soon. We will all be traveling up North for the big day and yes, it will be a beautiful country wedding and what a beautiful exchange! My big city living for his country wedding, well our country wedding. It will be such a precious moment for us. It will be sweet and it will be lovely, it will be family oriented and oh so cozy. We are really both of us looking forward to it but most importantly God will be the center of our love on that day, the reason we are coming together to be stronger in the Lord than we are apart. Love is good when you got God. This week, literally jump starts the fun!
I can't wait to keep you posted on all the fun that is to come. First I will be spending the week with my very lovely Bridesmaid Angelica on Wednesday getting the dress prepared for presentation on the wedding day. Than we have a bit of an adventure to find a few extra things we will need for the Bachelorette party. Than we will all of us girls be getting together to celebrate! I will be posting pictures!! I am soooo excited! With all the challenges that have come our way, we really do have something to celebrate! Before we know it I will be taking a train back to my Honey's home to visit his parents where I will be spending the week with them before I see my man again on our BIG DAY! I can't wait!!!! Everything is coming together and falling right into place, on time. So much to do so little time, looking forward to what God will be doing this week. I'm not sure what to expect as each day walks me closer to the Big day but I am really excited! Yay!!! The wedding is almost here!
I can't wait to be celebrating with the girls this weekend! BUT! BUT! before that I am super excited about Church on Sunday! Even though it just past but I can't for next week! There will be a guest speaker, who I hear is totally on fire for the Lord and does ministry all day long with all of God's people. I am really looking forward to what God has to say through this strong man of the Lord. Really excited about that. It will complete my next step in the Lord. Onwards!
Last night, on Sunday the church had a fantastic couples meeting and it was really nice to meet couples of all ages! People we could learn and grow in the wisdom of what they have learn from being married more years than we have. It was a blessing to be able to attend. We had a fantastic lesson that we got to watch from a pastor who spoke about marriage. We learned that God loves us perfectly, passionately and permanently and that we can't love our spouses without God loving through us perfectly. It gave us food for thought and than we had group discussions after our short video. Everyone in the group thought was totally cute that we are the newlyweds, lol ha, ha, yeah, yeah, whatever, laugh if you want to. You all wish you were back at the Honeymoon stage lol. It's the fun stage yes, yes well I hope to be in love with my Honey for the rest of our lives.
After that we had the chance for a super fancy awesome treat. The tables were decorated in beautiful Valentine décor. I absolutely! loved it! I felt celebrated despite all the struggle I had been faced with before our court date marriage. Now here I was being rewarded with my Honey for a nice fancy Valentine gift with all my other brother's and sister's in the Lord for treats, cookies, candy, chocolate fondue fountains, and gram crackers and marshy mellows, and crepes with banana and chocolate drizzle, cakes of all kinds, my favorite of course was the Birthday cake, yummy! It was certainly a Sunday kick off to our big day! Funny, almost all of our events have been plan on a Sunday, God's day. I like it that way.
Well, I shall see you around the next post!
I can't wait to keep you posted on all the fun that is to come. First I will be spending the week with my very lovely Bridesmaid Angelica on Wednesday getting the dress prepared for presentation on the wedding day. Than we have a bit of an adventure to find a few extra things we will need for the Bachelorette party. Than we will all of us girls be getting together to celebrate! I will be posting pictures!! I am soooo excited! With all the challenges that have come our way, we really do have something to celebrate! Before we know it I will be taking a train back to my Honey's home to visit his parents where I will be spending the week with them before I see my man again on our BIG DAY! I can't wait!!!! Everything is coming together and falling right into place, on time. So much to do so little time, looking forward to what God will be doing this week. I'm not sure what to expect as each day walks me closer to the Big day but I am really excited! Yay!!! The wedding is almost here!
I can't wait to be celebrating with the girls this weekend! BUT! BUT! before that I am super excited about Church on Sunday! Even though it just past but I can't for next week! There will be a guest speaker, who I hear is totally on fire for the Lord and does ministry all day long with all of God's people. I am really looking forward to what God has to say through this strong man of the Lord. Really excited about that. It will complete my next step in the Lord. Onwards!
Last night, on Sunday the church had a fantastic couples meeting and it was really nice to meet couples of all ages! People we could learn and grow in the wisdom of what they have learn from being married more years than we have. It was a blessing to be able to attend. We had a fantastic lesson that we got to watch from a pastor who spoke about marriage. We learned that God loves us perfectly, passionately and permanently and that we can't love our spouses without God loving through us perfectly. It gave us food for thought and than we had group discussions after our short video. Everyone in the group thought was totally cute that we are the newlyweds, lol ha, ha, yeah, yeah, whatever, laugh if you want to. You all wish you were back at the Honeymoon stage lol. It's the fun stage yes, yes well I hope to be in love with my Honey for the rest of our lives.
After that we had the chance for a super fancy awesome treat. The tables were decorated in beautiful Valentine décor. I absolutely! loved it! I felt celebrated despite all the struggle I had been faced with before our court date marriage. Now here I was being rewarded with my Honey for a nice fancy Valentine gift with all my other brother's and sister's in the Lord for treats, cookies, candy, chocolate fondue fountains, and gram crackers and marshy mellows, and crepes with banana and chocolate drizzle, cakes of all kinds, my favorite of course was the Birthday cake, yummy! It was certainly a Sunday kick off to our big day! Funny, almost all of our events have been plan on a Sunday, God's day. I like it that way.
Well, I shall see you around the next post!
Sunday, February 15, 2015
Here comes the Bride
Here comes the Bride all dressed in white! yes, that will be me in a few weeks from now. Let me back you all the way up to May 15, 2014 we got engaged!!!! I wish I had a picture to post of the ring but I must be honest and say, it's lost in a huge stack of photos in which I would have to dig through to find. So, until then we got engaged and I called home to let my parents know the exciting news. I was up visiting with his parents in Rio Vista when he got on one knee and thank God he did because I rushed over him and kissed him and was so excited and in love and so happy that he did at last ask me cuz he sat that ring box where I could see it so I knew it was coming, I just hoped it was for me and that it was coming to a heart near me soon! So anyway I waited and watched for that ring to appear almost all week long! I was so happy to get it. Very happy!
Before that I got a beautiful, beautiful, promise ring before my 26th Birthday in March. I have to mention, I was really sick. During that visit I had an abstract tooth, the worst feeling pain ever so of course it had to get pulled shortly before his arrival. I was on antibiotics and that was great! I have a bit of a confession to make, I will not for any reason swallow a pill. Yep, I just cannot get passed those gag refluxes, no thanks. I will take it crushed. Garret, anyway crushed up those pills and made sure I was comfortable. I was true love. I had small little canker sores where they had worked on removing my tooth and sore all over from having this ordeal take over my life the week he was here. I was not myself. We took a drive out to Julian for some apple pie and of course that is when he noticed my father's ring which he had given me was missing from my finger, so he than surprised me with a promise ring! It was so exciting for me! He than took me to eat thankfully it was a quiet little place where I could try to get a hot soup down, even that was a challenge. I knew he loved me when he could come all the way down from Northern California to enjoy spending time with a me that was less than attractive to be with. His promise ring made being sick feel like a good memory and not one that would last as one of the worst times in my life.
Before long, there would be a new decision he would have to make in his life. He wanted to wait on the Lord to see if he would be moving to Southern California or staying put in Northern California. I for one was not moving up North for any reason and he for one did not want to move down here for any reason. I lived in a seriously busy city in San Diego and he lived in the middle of no where, it's still the middle of no where to me. I still can't possibly see living there in my young life, there is so much to do and a whole lot of running around that I am currently used to as my way of life, it's my life style it' how I have lived my life. Well, Garret wasn't having it, to him a fast pace life was not the life for him and living far out and away from all of normal every day civilization seemed like the last place I wanted to go or would go. We were at a stand still in our relationship, we could almost hear each other say, "fine! I'm not moving," so we could stay happy put right where we were.
As God would have it, he was moving things right into place for both of us. I was not moving up North and Garret was not moving down here. I petitioned for a busy life while he petitioned the Lord for country living. I didn't figure on God satisfying us both. One afternoon while walking over to Jean's house a little lady who was aging gracefully and I loved her with all my heart. I would from time to time come by to see how she was doing, maybe help her around the house with very, very light house cleaning. She and I would talk a lot she certainly was a "fire cracker" Garret would say. She had a lot of spunk. I had told the Lord while walking over to her house, "oh Lord 20.00 isn't a paycheck!" I whined. I felt the Lord speak into my spirit. "It might as well be nothing, change your attitude and it can be more." Sure enough.
On one of my visit to see Jean we sat at table together, I had fixed her coffee that morning. I was a basket full of emotions, "How can I move up north?" She completely understood, my love of the ocean. "Well, she said, "what are you going to do sit up on the river and cry all day?" "Yes! yes, that is exactly what I plan to do." Is exactly what I thought. After all what else can you do all day, accept sit up on a river stick your feet in and cry. That pretty much covers your entire day. It is though the perfect way of getting to know God though. All that country and not much to do, the only thing to start getting doing is knowing who God is more intimately.
The last night I had with her in her home she lay in bed, knowing she would be leaving the next afternoon she asked me, "can you see yourself living here?" she asked me? Of course, it had, crossed my mind. It had become a desire in my heart to live in her beautiful country looking cottage. It was adorable in it's country vintage way, with beautiful wooden shutters and vintage wall paper in each room, I could not deny it's quaint welcoming warmth which had quickly drawn my heart. In no way did I imagine it could be our first home that Garret and I would have. Little did I see it coming.
Before we knew it, Garret was moving down to the little cottage to prepare for the life we would have together. This way we could plan a wedding together and plan out the start of our future together. Our exciting start quickly! became a nightmare. He had just moved down here without a job or a single stability for himself to stand on accept the house that had by God's grace came to be a beautiful wedding gift. At first there was an agreement that no payment would be added to him for the cost of utilities or rent considering the circumstance of no job. Well, that no job for several months turned into a quick hand over of money he did not have to turn over. Thankfully, I was working at the time and so I paid the low number of 100. Satisfied, we won time we needed until God would open a new door. One thing after another, we had gone out to grab dinner one night and upon arrival back to the little cottage to our utter horror and shock we found his dog completely bloody by having been hit on the busy road. It was one of the worst pains we had ever faced together. There was no money to be had to help save the dog' life. We were months away from getting married and our lives were a disaster!
We got on a sight that would help us get donations for the dog to help us afford any his medical bills. This sad situation had a bit of a twist of humor to it. He had been fairly scratched up, but thankfully not single bone in his body broken, accept for his, get this, butt hole, of all things! His bottom!!! He had to get his butt hole remade. It made for a bit of a laugh. At least the dog made it with his life and we thanked God for that. We couldn't be more glad that God was in it the way God had been. I watched Garret give God all the thanks all the way through it. When we thought things couldn't get any worse they did, he lost his phone to the busy street, which he had left on his car, it sprang right off the top of the car where he had left it. It was time for a new cell phone, something I will be needing soon, myself. By December nothing was looking good. We had family issues arising that were less than pleasant and he had than been scammed 3,000 from his bank. Getting married in my dad's eyes were not looking good at this point. This was not what my dad had in mind for me.
What were we to do? So we began to pray. We gathered with pastors and many family members from my mother's side of the family who are strong in the Lord and in His word. When it came down to it we knew what it was that we needed to do. Although we had been hit with one thing after another, we recognized that there was a spiritual war for our marriage. (Everything) had come against us and everything tried to separate and come to divide our already strong relationship. I had come to question if maybe Garret should have never moved down here if maybe all these things would not have happen. I partly blame myself for it. If he had just stayed up North maybe all these things would never have happen!
There was no getting around the attacks that would come in various waves. If we could be attacked we were. It could come from family members and outside sources. We were beside ourselves. We knew we needed to be married. It wasn't how I imagined my world would turn out but I also knew that Garret was my husband and that everything that could come against us would and we needed to put an end to his spiritual battle for the marriage that we knew would happen. Regardless of our financial situation we knew we were called to each other. We also knew this would not go over well if we decided to go ahead and get married. We also knew that not getting married would continue to invite spiritual attacks upon us including our financial stability in which every way had already been attacked. We knew that Marriage was God's thing, His idea and it was the enemy's mission to keep us from that goal of marriage. We had experienced it and we knew exactly what it was that we were faced with.
Well, here we are today! We got married at the court house on January 9th 2015. We are still having a wedding event and are very excited about it. We have a beautiful country cottage home that we are living in and are very comfortable in our home. We really love it, we are doing excellent with our finances like never before and doing well all around. We are really looking forward to our wedding event. We are so very happy and glad at last to be past these various attacks that had come our way. We are at last catching our footing. Remember that weddings and marriage are God's thing and it will always come under attack. No matter what. Like Garret say's, "If your not trying to live for Christ, there is no point in the enemy trying to attack your walk, let alone your relationship, and he sure doesn't care if your both not trying to live for Christ." But when you are two strong spirit - filled children of the Lord and you bring them together you can bet your bottom dollar there will come every attack in the book imaginable and we faced about everything that put us through the ultimate test of not our relationship but our faith that God would show up for us every time and sure enough God never did fail us.
Before that I got a beautiful, beautiful, promise ring before my 26th Birthday in March. I have to mention, I was really sick. During that visit I had an abstract tooth, the worst feeling pain ever so of course it had to get pulled shortly before his arrival. I was on antibiotics and that was great! I have a bit of a confession to make, I will not for any reason swallow a pill. Yep, I just cannot get passed those gag refluxes, no thanks. I will take it crushed. Garret, anyway crushed up those pills and made sure I was comfortable. I was true love. I had small little canker sores where they had worked on removing my tooth and sore all over from having this ordeal take over my life the week he was here. I was not myself. We took a drive out to Julian for some apple pie and of course that is when he noticed my father's ring which he had given me was missing from my finger, so he than surprised me with a promise ring! It was so exciting for me! He than took me to eat thankfully it was a quiet little place where I could try to get a hot soup down, even that was a challenge. I knew he loved me when he could come all the way down from Northern California to enjoy spending time with a me that was less than attractive to be with. His promise ring made being sick feel like a good memory and not one that would last as one of the worst times in my life.
Before long, there would be a new decision he would have to make in his life. He wanted to wait on the Lord to see if he would be moving to Southern California or staying put in Northern California. I for one was not moving up North for any reason and he for one did not want to move down here for any reason. I lived in a seriously busy city in San Diego and he lived in the middle of no where, it's still the middle of no where to me. I still can't possibly see living there in my young life, there is so much to do and a whole lot of running around that I am currently used to as my way of life, it's my life style it' how I have lived my life. Well, Garret wasn't having it, to him a fast pace life was not the life for him and living far out and away from all of normal every day civilization seemed like the last place I wanted to go or would go. We were at a stand still in our relationship, we could almost hear each other say, "fine! I'm not moving," so we could stay happy put right where we were.
As God would have it, he was moving things right into place for both of us. I was not moving up North and Garret was not moving down here. I petitioned for a busy life while he petitioned the Lord for country living. I didn't figure on God satisfying us both. One afternoon while walking over to Jean's house a little lady who was aging gracefully and I loved her with all my heart. I would from time to time come by to see how she was doing, maybe help her around the house with very, very light house cleaning. She and I would talk a lot she certainly was a "fire cracker" Garret would say. She had a lot of spunk. I had told the Lord while walking over to her house, "oh Lord 20.00 isn't a paycheck!" I whined. I felt the Lord speak into my spirit. "It might as well be nothing, change your attitude and it can be more." Sure enough.
On one of my visit to see Jean we sat at table together, I had fixed her coffee that morning. I was a basket full of emotions, "How can I move up north?" She completely understood, my love of the ocean. "Well, she said, "what are you going to do sit up on the river and cry all day?" "Yes! yes, that is exactly what I plan to do." Is exactly what I thought. After all what else can you do all day, accept sit up on a river stick your feet in and cry. That pretty much covers your entire day. It is though the perfect way of getting to know God though. All that country and not much to do, the only thing to start getting doing is knowing who God is more intimately.
The last night I had with her in her home she lay in bed, knowing she would be leaving the next afternoon she asked me, "can you see yourself living here?" she asked me? Of course, it had, crossed my mind. It had become a desire in my heart to live in her beautiful country looking cottage. It was adorable in it's country vintage way, with beautiful wooden shutters and vintage wall paper in each room, I could not deny it's quaint welcoming warmth which had quickly drawn my heart. In no way did I imagine it could be our first home that Garret and I would have. Little did I see it coming.
Before we knew it, Garret was moving down to the little cottage to prepare for the life we would have together. This way we could plan a wedding together and plan out the start of our future together. Our exciting start quickly! became a nightmare. He had just moved down here without a job or a single stability for himself to stand on accept the house that had by God's grace came to be a beautiful wedding gift. At first there was an agreement that no payment would be added to him for the cost of utilities or rent considering the circumstance of no job. Well, that no job for several months turned into a quick hand over of money he did not have to turn over. Thankfully, I was working at the time and so I paid the low number of 100. Satisfied, we won time we needed until God would open a new door. One thing after another, we had gone out to grab dinner one night and upon arrival back to the little cottage to our utter horror and shock we found his dog completely bloody by having been hit on the busy road. It was one of the worst pains we had ever faced together. There was no money to be had to help save the dog' life. We were months away from getting married and our lives were a disaster!
We got on a sight that would help us get donations for the dog to help us afford any his medical bills. This sad situation had a bit of a twist of humor to it. He had been fairly scratched up, but thankfully not single bone in his body broken, accept for his, get this, butt hole, of all things! His bottom!!! He had to get his butt hole remade. It made for a bit of a laugh. At least the dog made it with his life and we thanked God for that. We couldn't be more glad that God was in it the way God had been. I watched Garret give God all the thanks all the way through it. When we thought things couldn't get any worse they did, he lost his phone to the busy street, which he had left on his car, it sprang right off the top of the car where he had left it. It was time for a new cell phone, something I will be needing soon, myself. By December nothing was looking good. We had family issues arising that were less than pleasant and he had than been scammed 3,000 from his bank. Getting married in my dad's eyes were not looking good at this point. This was not what my dad had in mind for me.
What were we to do? So we began to pray. We gathered with pastors and many family members from my mother's side of the family who are strong in the Lord and in His word. When it came down to it we knew what it was that we needed to do. Although we had been hit with one thing after another, we recognized that there was a spiritual war for our marriage. (Everything) had come against us and everything tried to separate and come to divide our already strong relationship. I had come to question if maybe Garret should have never moved down here if maybe all these things would not have happen. I partly blame myself for it. If he had just stayed up North maybe all these things would never have happen!
There was no getting around the attacks that would come in various waves. If we could be attacked we were. It could come from family members and outside sources. We were beside ourselves. We knew we needed to be married. It wasn't how I imagined my world would turn out but I also knew that Garret was my husband and that everything that could come against us would and we needed to put an end to his spiritual battle for the marriage that we knew would happen. Regardless of our financial situation we knew we were called to each other. We also knew this would not go over well if we decided to go ahead and get married. We also knew that not getting married would continue to invite spiritual attacks upon us including our financial stability in which every way had already been attacked. We knew that Marriage was God's thing, His idea and it was the enemy's mission to keep us from that goal of marriage. We had experienced it and we knew exactly what it was that we were faced with.
Well, here we are today! We got married at the court house on January 9th 2015. We are still having a wedding event and are very excited about it. We have a beautiful country cottage home that we are living in and are very comfortable in our home. We really love it, we are doing excellent with our finances like never before and doing well all around. We are really looking forward to our wedding event. We are so very happy and glad at last to be past these various attacks that had come our way. We are at last catching our footing. Remember that weddings and marriage are God's thing and it will always come under attack. No matter what. Like Garret say's, "If your not trying to live for Christ, there is no point in the enemy trying to attack your walk, let alone your relationship, and he sure doesn't care if your both not trying to live for Christ." But when you are two strong spirit - filled children of the Lord and you bring them together you can bet your bottom dollar there will come every attack in the book imaginable and we faced about everything that put us through the ultimate test of not our relationship but our faith that God would show up for us every time and sure enough God never did fail us.
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